Doctor Update

So I went back to my civilian doctor and still love him. I saw him a week ago for the first time and he told me his theory, which was: It's all because of my weight. We discussed my eating habits, my activity level and lifestyle. We determined that although my activity level is down (hello...no more high school marching band and such) there's no way that without eating 12 donuts a day, which I do not do, that I should have gained 120 lbs in 6 years. So, he did a blood work panel and I was to write down everything I eat for the next week and see him again on Thursday.
When I went on Thursday we went over my blood work. Surprisingly my thyroid is messed up. I asked him how they didn't notice this before when they checked it, as I was told they did by every military doctor I've had. He said they didn't notice it because they...NEVER CHECKED IT. There's no record in my medical records of a thyroid test ever being done. Not in Texas, not in Georgia and not in Washington.
So, 6 years, 120 lbs later we finally have an answer. Totally exciting! It's going to be a bit of work of course but I feel like I can finally see the end of this tunnel.
My weight is the reason my gallbladder became diseased, my liver is in trouble, we haven't been able to get pregnant, my insomnia...all of it. And the answer to my weight issue: thyroid medication.
So, I started my new regimen of thyroid pill before I eat and appetite suppressant after. I already feel more energized. I have no desire to snack. I've been sitting here trying to figure out what I'm feeling because it's weird and I just realized its energy. My thyroid is speeding up and that is energizing my body. I've already accomplished more today than I have in weeks, washed the car, cleaned off the porch, power washed the porch, vacuumed, dusted, made breakfast, cleaned the downstairs bathroom, cleaned the kitchen, cleaned out the cat box, cleaned the coolers that have been sitting around since July needing sprayed out, took out the trash & recycle...wow. I haven't had this much energy in so long! I'm even looking forward to hitting the treadmill today. I'm going to walk to the mailbox, get my netflix that should be there and hit the treadmill. Woohoo!
I'm going to keep a weight journal and update my weight and measurements every Monday and will take monthly pictures so that WHEN this weight comes off, I can go back and see it happening. I'm going to lose this weight, get in shape, be healthy, have 4 children and live happily ever after, damn it! I deserve this!

Oh geeze.

So Katie just left. She came in, woke me up, told me she loved me, and drove away from my life here. She's so brave! I could never do that, so straight faced and all by myself. I guess if I had to I could but I could never choose to.
She loves me.

I've been sitting here, crying and boobing, and listening to my house be too quiet and I realized that I have a huge fault. I become so dependent on other people. When we lived in Texas, it was Melissa, my TX BFF, then in GA it was Felicia, my GA BFF...here it was Katie. I crave someone to be my constant. I was thinking that it was so sad that she left because its so quiet here, and I'll be alone all day and yadda yadda. But I think its that I'm afraid to be so alone. Sure, Keith's here at night but by now I wanted to have rugrats running around and a full house and I don't. It's disappointing. I will miss having Katie here...no doubt. I'll miss Holly meowing and rubbing all over my leg and then being the biggest snob when I go to love on her. I'll miss knowing that Katie is "somewhere" in this house if I want to talk to her or need her. I'll miss the amazing relationship we've developed by being so close and doing everything together. I'll do my best to keep that relationship alive. But now I'm also going to have to be a big girl. I'm ashamed to say that while she was here it seemed like she was the big sister sometimes. I would just cast that thought aside with "ah, shes just a good helper" or something that is definately true but not to be used as an excuse. Katie is so good at taking care of people that I didnt even have to think about it happening.
Katie made my last 2 months here light up and I will always cherish that and be so grateful to her. I owe her for my happiness here.
Now its up to me to make it for myself and that scares me. Keith's leaving sometime in the next couple months for 2 months or so and then it will really be just me and my animals and since I've been alone before I know I can handle life but I sure don't know how I'm going to do it and handle being alone. I'm afraid I'll sink into my little pod and just kind of exist out here instead of be in the world.
I had a job interview the other day for a full time call center type job at a small pest control company. It's an hour commute but 30K we didn't have before. Katie even went to the job interview with me and sat in the car with Edward (u know what i mean Michelle) while I did the interview. I hope I get the job because that's a reason for me to leave the house regularly and meet people, get out and do something. I'm afraid that if I don't have a reason to be "out there" I'll find a reason to stay "in here".
So basically, Katie is gone. I'm afraid. Grow up Kim...right?!

I'm ok. :)

Now what...

So Katie's leaving. Apparently she's homesick and doesn't want to be here anymore. So now what? She'll leave me and I've made 1 friend since I've been here. Katie's my lifeline. She's my closest friend here, other than Keith. She's who I spend all my time with. Now what do I do? We've been having so much fun...getting out and doing things. Now I have no one to get out and do things with while Keith's at work. I've been applying for jobs and I probably won't get any of them, Katie's leaving, I have no friends. Life's never been so incomplete. At least I can blame the depression on the weather. :(

Olympics

So I've been watching the Olympics, pretty regularly over the last week or so and I have to say I'm really enjoying it. I'm not watching the boring stuff like table tennis or shooting or whatever but to each their own. I'm officially a Michael Phelpsian, hehe and have a new love for the male divers. Wow are they "built". BUT it also makes me think about myself. These athletes can work out 8-12 hours a day and push themselves to these great lengths to be the best and I can't even seem to get off my tush to do my treadmill 1/2 an hour a day. Wow. I guess all I have to remember is that I'm not out trying to win an Olympic medal but I'm worth pushing myself and if they can give themselves 8-12 hours a day I can do 1/2 an hour for sure!! The doc wants me on the treadmill 3-4 times a week starting with 20 minutes a day and going up in 5 minute increments every week. So by Christmas I should be doing 1 hr and 50 minutes a day 4 times a week. Holy crap. I guess theres no harm in it. I'm just sooo lazy. I'm really going to have to push myself. But its worth it. I'll be healthy for the first time in like 6 years and maybe we can finally get pregnant!! (so i can gain a bunch of pregnancy weight and start over!!!) haha.

Finished.

I finished the last book of the Twilight series at 2:30 a.m. Thanks Michelle for the insomnia. What a read!!! There were some parts that blew my mind. :) Nice.

Vampires & sleepovers!!

So Michelle owes me some summer. Seriously, I've spent the last 2 weeks of mine burried in these Stephanie Meyer books and I'm sure I'm missing out on some wicked summer fun! Although at this point I don't really mind.
The other day I had a sleepover. My friend Breckan came out and we went swimming in the lake with Keith, ate Dijorno Garlic Bread Crust Pepperonni Pizza and watched The Bucket List. Fun.
We kind of went car shopping yesterday but are going to wait to get anything for a while. Our car is out of warrenty now and I'm not excited about having a car with no warrenty but our credit is repairing and our car isn't worth anything to trade in so we're going to save up some money and try to sell my car outright to someone else. :) Fun.
The weather here has been unusually warm. Like whoa hot. And we don't have air conditioners here because we're NOT SUPPOSED TO NEED THEM!! GET THAT MOTHER NATURE?! BACK OFF!!
Anywho, life is normalish. No complaints here.

Hmmm

Our electric bill is 25.00 less this month than last month...
Gas has gone down 0.14 in 2 days here...
Keiths already off for the whole weekend...
All positive.
Good deal.